I've Been Hiding From Love And I Wish I Would Be Brave

I'm sorry please forgive me thank you I love you. Ive been avoiding transformation and the tower moment finally triggered today. Ive been hiding from love and I wish I would be brave because this feels unpleasant and I feel alone because I dont know why. I'm moving to my grandmas today my karmic roomate and I are walking away from eachother. Breathing around others feels weird. I want to comunicate more but I feel scared of my transformation and avoiding it is leading to chaos and pain and illusions and I dont understand why I wont choose love I dont know what I'm scared of. Theres so much to feel becauze ive been avoiding feeling and it caught up finally and busted.

I love you and I want to experience joy with mom and you and all of creation

I was waiting to talk to you guys yesterday and my loop happened. I got high and started drinking and ended up leaving and being dumb

I want to stop being self important so bad. It hurts so kuch to be self important. I love you guys dearly and I'm tired of me making things about me. I pray for the strength to be courageous in these moments and to serve love

Anna